Update

Dear Diary~


I've been seeing other things... just... people... Like people walking around my house... I don't know who they are... some of them try to talk to me too, but I haven't acknowledged any of them... I mean... This must just be another hallucination...


My doctor is really angry with me... Well it's not my fault that he's being no help, and apparently can't see "The Narrator"'s blog. I know I'm not crazy! Two of the people following me back me up, and there's no way I could be hallucinating all of this...


Maybe I should actually try talking to these people... the ones that I'm seeing in my house... I mean... what do I stand to lose?


Oh and incase you were wondering, the dreams are still happening, and just as disturbing as ever... though I'll admit that they at least seem to have different story lines going on... I think I'll post tomorrow about what my dream is tonight, cause I'm sure to have another one.


If it seems like I'm being kind of... calm about this, I'm not. It's just that because I'm typing this out and can take my time,  I'm able to express myself in a little more of a logical manner... *deep breath* okay, I'm going to go watch some stuff on netflix and try and calm down... 


Bernard Laguardia

Waking Dreams

Dear Diary~


So... the medication is sort of working... I mean... the dreams aren't as clear... they're kind of fuzzy now... but... sometimes... when I wake up... I see him standing there in my room... watching me... but after a bit... even if I keep my eyes focused on him, he just goes away... fading away like he was just a dream... I mean... of course he is... but god... Waking dreams are unsettling...


This has happened twice, once last night and just a few minutes ago... I just woke up from some nightmare... I don't know what it was about... couldn't see anything...


But... also the medication is making it hard to function during day to day activities... I'm sluggish and am finding it really hard to think very complicated thoughts...


Also I still feel watched... that hasn't changed at all... It's all the time too... no matter where I am... like he's there... looming over me... watching... waiting for something...


Bernard Laguardia

... :/

Dear Diary~


So yeah... The dreams have been pretty much happening every night since I last posted... and they've been really clear... I mean... disturbingly so... They felt really real... And that fucking Executor person... see... after seeing his comments... I looked up what I've been seeing... and... well... I learned about the Slender Man... I'll be talking to my doctor about this now, but god... I've never even heard of this character... and he keeps showing up in my dreams... and at night... I feel like something is watching me... I mean... I guess that's not totally out of the norm... but it's not like it normally is... I feel so scared...


Bernard Laguardia